Dreams

There is a spirit that hovers over the land. I do not know what it looks like when I see through my eyes. Yet, the moment I close them, it becomes clear. It is like a dark gray, almost black. It slithers in the air and awaits for a moment.

The people underneath laughs and goes about their day, unaware of what is waiting over them. There’s familiar faces that I remember, but the others blended in. I’m not sure why I am dreaming now. Not too long ago, I dreamed nothing. If I dreamed, I would not remember a single moment. Why do these images linger?

It’s as if I’ve truly lived these dreams and the emotions linger in my waking life. I walk through the rooms in this dream. It was like utopia, seemingly good, but I saw the spirit hovering. I felt afraid.

I looked and looked, and I could not find. I searched and searched, and I did not understand. All of a sudden, these spirits came down in a rush and went into one person. I saw him curl on the ground and he was afraid. He didn’t look up and he seemed to shake.

Everything is in slow motion now, but at the same time it felt like a roller coaster. I walk closer, worried, but the Lord assured me to do what I am to do. In the vision of the dream, my hand reached out and I yelled for the spirits to leave.

Was it a yelling or was it a prayer? Was it both? These things do not come out unless it’s with prayer and fasting. Am I to fast? Am I to be in prayer? Oh, the dreams did not stop.

In a world that is filled with unbelief, I would assume dreams are what’s truly in our hearts unseen or a subconscious mind. The truth is that the Lord is Lord over all. Lord over my waking moments and Lord over the moments that I close my eyes. God knew I was afraid and unsure of doing what He’d ask me to do. A voice from a friend wasn’t enough it seemed. I was sure, then the back and forth came again. I won’t do that, I say to myself. I’ll keep to myself, I thought. Peacekeeper is an unfriendly word.

How close is the Lord to me? This dream was good. I saw someone sleeping in a very bright room. The light shining through seemed like the light I know in my waking life, but it looked and felt so healing. How can someone sleep that peacefully? I opened the door of this room and asked to speak to the one who is sleeping. Oh, I was so sorry to disturb. How could I do such a thing? Don’t disturb the peace, I told myself. Yet, the sleeping one awoke with a bright smile and a welcoming voice. What is a person if they are not with the Lord? Definitely not like this. This was visible. The brightest joy that can only come from the One where true joy comes from.

Then Lord assured me of peace even if I thought the peace would be disturbed.

“Be anxious for nothing, but in everything by prayer and supplication, with thanksgiving, let your requests be made known to God; and the peace of God, which surpasses all understanding, will guard your hearts and minds through Christ Jesus.”
‭‭Philippians‬ ‭4‬:‭6‬-‭7‬

The Lord makes a way when I think there is no way. How does He do this? My burdens are off and it feels freeing. It’s so light to live with the Lord.

I need to learn to make my requests known to God, daily and intently. He surpasses all of my limited understanding. I want my heart to be guarded. I desire for my mind to be guarded. Oh the mind, something I do not understand. A small space in the body, yet it is limitless in the spirit. The dreams did not stop.

A home that I thought was my home looked different. Whose home was it? There were people, just people everywhere. There was a closed gate, but somehow the people just kept coming in. I did not recognize any faces. I felt so alone…

I searched for anyone, someone at least I would know and I could not find. I looked and looked, the more lost I seemed to be. What fear is in me, if it is fear? What am I looking for, if I am looking for something? Why was I alone?

I ask myself, what is the Lord showing me? Is it a call for prayer and fasting? What are these spirits, I do not understand. What are these dreams, I sometimes cannot interpret.

Lord, You are the One with the answers. I trust You fully with my soul. My mind doesn’t understand, but I love You. In my hunger, I’ll praise You and await your helping Hand. Your Hand is powerful. Do not let us pass you by, Lord. Let every idle heart come alive. Let every foot that decides to step back, bring both feet toward the goal of Your Kingdom on earth.

Find us, oh Lord, and do not let us go astray. Holy Spirit, convict. Holy Spirit, comfort us to remain in Your love. The life is hard, but with You, oh God, we live with the Kingdom in mind. Fuel the fire, Lord and let us not grow weary. I pray to you, God, I am making it known to You fully with my praise. You are the God who moves mountains, and that power is the same power that will move us.

So shall it be, in Your name, my Father, Yahweh, my God.